I read a quote this morning and my heart felt like it busted open.
It felt like the quote was speaking to me, in the exact moment that I needed to see it.
The quote was,
"The good you do today; people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway."
This quote is an excerpt from Maya Angelou's "Anyway" poem.
The full poem is listed below at the bottom of the blog.
Last week, my boyfriend Rick and I were walking on the beach and we were conversing back and forth about our work and what we are doing in the world.
We are both entrepreneurs untangling ourselves from the reigns of what we thought we should be doing in life...you know, the 9-5's.
About a year ago, Rick got out of the Navy after serving 8 years to become a writer, a speaker, and a thought leader.
About 3 months ago, I graduated Physical Therapy school, and now I am currently building AlphaFemme, a business centered around redefining the relationships individuals have with their physical, emotional, and spiritual health.
In the building stages of AlphaFemme, I've been facing some emotional ups and downs dealing with confidence in myself and worthiness of it all.
As we were chatting, I started to have thoughts of,
"Can I really do this?""Am I worthy of something like this?"
Rick stated in his podcast this morning, that society is in a time where the barrier to entry to pursue our dreams is no longer external, the barrier to entry is now just simply ourselves.
That's a blessing and a curse.
When you've lived your whole life not speaking your truths, you become conditioned to believe that your limiting beliefs are "your truth."
My journey of creating AlphaFemme has been one of the most painful and eye opening experiences of my life.
AlphaFemme feels like my calling in the world.
This has become the space that I can finally voice my truths as I continue to grow, evolve, and break open the shell of the human I used to be and help others do the same.
But it's extremely painful as well.
Building AlphaFemme is forcing me to venture into the deepest, rawest, and most uncomfortable parts of my soul for healing.
When you get to a certain depth, you start pushing against your limiting beliefs, the edge of what you have always known to be true.
The farther you go, the more resistance, the more painful it gets.
It's paradoxical though, because this type of resistance and pain is healing.
My past self feels like it is being vigorously uprooted, curious and aware, and moving towards something so much bigger.
So as I continue to forge onwards in my healing journey,
I get scared, and the "what if" thoughts, the comparisons, and the worry all come flooding in.
As Rick and I talked through my feelings and insecurities about building the business, he said, "I know what you're going through, and I wouldn't wish that hell upon anybody. But when you're on the other side of it, you realize...it's not even about you...it's so much bigger than you."
I couldn't help but realize he was right.
This isn't about me.
This isn't about my fears, my insecurities, or my worries.
This is about sharing my truths so that individuals around the world can use the knowledge and insight from my healing to better understand their lives and feel empowered to heal.
"Our deepest wounds surround our greatest gifts"
Moral of this blog: if you are feeling unsure, lost, and you're discovering what you are meant to do on this earth, start digging.
When you feel an uncomfortable emotion or painful experience on your path to serve...dig.
Breaking open may very well lead to your calling.
Insecurities, shame, and guilt are no longer running the show.
You are. And your calling...it's going to be so much bigger than you.
And when in doubt, do good anyway
"Anyway" by Mother Teresa
People are often unreasonable, illogical and self centered; Forgive them anyway.
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives; Be kind anyway.
If you are successful, you will win some false friends and some true enemies; Succeed anyway.
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you; Be honest and frank anyway.
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight; Build anyway.
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous; Be happy anyway.
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow; Do good anyway.
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; Give the world the best you've got anyway.
You see, in the final analysis, it is between you and your God; It was never between you and them anyway.